Seeing what you want to see?

How many people have been so smitten with someone that they ignore what their friends tell them and refuse to see the faults in that person? It took me until last night to realise that the girl who professed to really like me has been very economical with the truth yet I still can't be angry with her. I'd rather blame myself for getting carried away and thinking she was everything I wanted. The worst thing is when the reality bites and you realise that your feelings were much more genuine than hers. You do doubt yourself and your confidence is knocked. I know there are loads of nice people out there. It just hurts when you were willing to put up with everything and treat someone with the respect you think they deserve, only for them to treat you as if you can switch your emotions on and off like a switch. The worst thing now is that I have to see her pretty regularly at work and she'll act as if nothing is wrong. Why did I become so irrational when it came to her?